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| what happened to spongebob |
was depressed since last Wed, because my practical project wasn't finalised and i didn't know what to do for it.
been wracking my brain at work. my poor little brain.
was stressed about meeting my photography lecturer last Fri too, because i didn't have anything decent to show her.
but meeting her was good because she said some things that stuck in my head.
why the hand?
what about the social and political realm, like paying for things?
as long as it's in a public space and you don't show their face.
then my project proposal was due for a draft showing to my supervisor on Fri but i was so sad i went to sleep.
you know when you're sad when you don't want to get out of bed even though your mind is racing.
and i sat in my chair for the whole weekend, trying to come up with something for my project.
i was desperate enough to revert to my idea from last semester. my supervisor liked them, so i thought i had to use them. which mean rotating the GoPro around my arm.
my flatmate made cupcakes. he's baking a lot, like what i did during my first semester when i had no job.
i only left my seat to get Velcro from the shops. and i came up with the crap idea of making my hand do 40 different actions, meaning i needed to get props and costumes and locations.
today i didn't want to wake up again. still agonized over the apparatus for the camera and the crap idea of doing 40 actions.
then during class, we workshopped our classmate's draft. he wrote about phenomenology as a methodology. that was a revelation.
then after class, i went to steal some wood to make an apparatus for my GoPro at the workshop.
the apparatus went okay.
then i went to sit at the cafe because i wanted to eat my muffin.
i decided to ask to sit on the other side of this mature guy since the other benches were taken and he was alone.
then he joked about wanting half my muffin since he let me share the table.
after that we were doing our own thing, i was reading the bits on phenomenology and wracking my brain for project ideas when he asked what i did here.
we started talking and it turns out he was doing his Masters in screenwriting and he has 20 years of experience doing theater and film, mostly in Sydney. so i was describing my problem agitatedly and he told me about his fights with his supervisor and his media studies class, which kinda helped me feel less shitty.
we talked until he left to cycle home and i went to the library.
at the library, i decided to get rid of my crappy '40 actions' idea and just do 1 action, handshaking, for my project. i decided it was going to be handshaking with strangers at the cultural center.
then i worked on the project proposal for 3 hours there and left feeling a lot better.
don't know what my supervisor will say about this but hopefully he won't think it's shit and give this assignment a bad mark.
